weekly post 【13】

This Thursday, I had my second coaching call with my wellness coach.

She and I talked for a bit about my view on success, vision, and achievement.

Our conversation ended up moving toward meditation, to which I mentioned that I did want to start doing it, and I told her that I would do my best to build a habit of it in the next 4 weeks before we spoke again. She picked up on the way I worded it—

“Do you see that? There’s the achievement. You don’t have to do it. We’re just trying it out, remember that!”

 

Being achievement-focused is a thinking pattern of mine that I’ve never noticed up until now.

But I really do tend to think of everything as a task.

Any activity that goes toward my self-growth or my goals counts as a task. Goals themselves are tasks.

Even in recreation, I accumulate tasks. Read all the stories, earn all the achievements, finish the game.

 

A completed task is worth something. All the reward lies in completion.

An incomplete task is worth nothing. Because the absence of success is failure, right?

And working on tasks, then, is punishment. Trade in the necessary time and effort for a reward.

 

If I stop seeing the things I want to do and the things I want to achieve as tasks, then I’ve suddenly reframed the entire situation.

Doing things can be fun in and of itself, even before it can be considered complete.

Things don’t have to be completed to hold value to me.

Things don’t have to be tasks.

I don’t have to reach 100% in everything I do.

 

I’ve still got a lot of reflection to do.

But this is a nice start.

Already, I’m doing things that I’ve been putting off for years.

 

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